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![]() ![]() Sayings Last Updated: [ 02.11.04 ]
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() [ a collection of my random not-so-daily hatreds. ]
![]() ![]() ![]() Poetry:
![]() ![]() ![]() its all for you, its all about you,
![]() i would do anything for you, i would give it all for you,
![]() i live for you, i'd die for you,
![]() when i am without you, i dont want to go on,
![]() when i am with you, i fly along,
![]() when i am beside you, i want to be closer,
![]() when i am away from you, a tear will fall,
![]() i'll do anything for you, i'll be everything for you,
![]() i'll be there for you, i'll love you,
![]() when its all said and done,
![]() i'll be happy,
![]() because i did it all for you.
![]() ![]() i try to run, i try to hide,
![]() from all the pain deep inside,
![]() but i cant escape whats in my mind,
![]() each day afraid of what i might find,
![]() i cant forget you, believe me i've tried,
![]() it kept getting worse and the more i cried,
![]() i wish you were here, why did you die?
![]() why couldnt you wait until i said goodbye?
![]() ![]() Its my love that i have lost,
![]() My heart and happiness were the cost.
![]() I feel alone out in the frost,
![]() Your feelings, in the air i tossed,
![]() Its my fault your gone, its all my loss.
![]() ![]() you told me to smile
![]() and everything would be alright
![]() thats easy for you to say
![]() when you are so far out of sight
![]() i hid myself from you
![]() pushed you away with all my might
![]() i told you before
![]() for our love i'd fight
![]() so im not giving up
![]() until you are back in my sight
![]() i'll be everything you need
![]() lift you to new heights
![]() i want us to go on
![]() i want our love to take flight
![]() im going to look you in the eyes
![]() and tell you everything will be alright
![]() ![]() the window is wide open
![]() but there's no light shining through
![]() there is no happiness in my life
![]() when i am without you
![]() you've moved on, by my request
![]() but i wished you still missed me too
![]() i dont know what i was thinking
![]() i was being stupid, i was the fool
![]() but i know one thing is true
![]() i cannot live my life without you
![]() ![]() why do i try
![]() to give you
![]() peace of mind
![]() you took my life
![]() i was stabbed in the back
![]() and you were holding the knife
![]() you said you would set me free
![]() but you forgot to mention
![]() you wouldnt let me be me
![]() if im not what you wanted
![]() why did you want me
![]() im not going out of my way
![]() for you again
![]() you are now an enemy
![]() that i once called a friend
![]() but it will be okay in the end
![]() cause what comes around
![]() goes around my friend
![]() ![]() you always look at me the same
![]() im just a picture locked inside a frame
![]() let me out, i'll be whatever you want
![]() i'll turn your life around, back to the front
![]() i tried once before, but i got it all wrong
![]() this is a different story, a different song
![]() i'll be the guy you need, the one you deserve
![]() my heart belongs to no one else, you have it reserved
![]() i'd walk a million miles, and then crawl one more mile
![]() just to hold you in my arms, and see you laugh and smile
![]() so please let me out of this frame, i'll be yours and true
![]() i promise even when we get old, our love will stay like new
![]() ![]() i look in your eyes, my pain goes away
![]() the clouds come, and rain falls my way
![]() the storm builds but it doesnt stop me
![]() when im with you, i become set free
![]() the rain falls harder, i get down to my knees
![]() these falling weights, do not penetrate me
![]() our love grows slowly, the love between you and me
![]() now just a seed, but eventually becomes a tree
![]() i am thankful for life, thankful for you and me
![]() ![]() i run away, and continue to hide
![]() i cant find the right words in my mind
![]() the words i need to tell you, the ones that explain how i feel
![]() how much you mean to me, why i find you so unreal
![]() but the words i cannot find today
![]() so again, you stay, and i run away
![]() hopping tomorrow the words i will find
![]() the words i need to whisper to make you mine
![]() but again i try, and again the words dont come
![]() and so again that day, i shy away and run
![]() and finally, finally the words i am looking for
![]() flow from my lips, but they arent the cure
![]() for the loneliness and sadness i fear
![]() cause i spoke the words while you werent near
![]() so i repeat them for you, when i am not by myself
![]() but to my shock and dismay, you have found someone else
![]() so head down, i walk away, no need to run this time
![]() the feelings i had for you were unique, the words were all mine
![]() i ment everything i said, it was all the truth
![]() until you, i didnt believe i could find love at this youth
![]() ![]() i walk up to your door, slowly and softly
![]() when you come to your door, im amazed by what i see
![]() the most beautiful person i have ever seen
![]() i greet you with a hug and i feel your energy rush through me
![]() instantly my heart bursts at the seams and love flies free
![]() this love i have for you, is because of the love you give to me
![]() ![]() i try so hard, to understand what you believe
![]() but i guess religion is just too much for me to conceive
![]() i know it bothers you, knowing i dont feel the same as you
![]() why you think we are here and after death where we go to
![]() i try so very hard to understand, i want to be like you
![]() i want to know what my life is but i dont know what to do
![]() so until i find out what to do, im going to listen to your feelings
![]() cause in the end your thoughts might convince me to start believing
![]() i try to be what you want me to be, but i just cant see things that way
![]() so you can keep trying, but my ways arent going to change today
![]() ![]() quietness is measured by how alone you feel
![]() and through this silence i will peel
![]() because finally i have found you
![]() and this quietness you have too
![]() so now to quietness i say goodbye
![]() i have found my noise, to last for all time
![]() and through this noise i wade
![]() as i watch loneliness fade
![]() and i no longer feel alone
![]() this noise has only begun to grow
![]() ![]() im not afraid to cry
![]() im afraid to walk away
![]() im not afraid to die
![]() im afraid to throw you away
![]() im not afraid to try
![]() im afraid of what could happen if i stay
![]() im not afraid to say goodbye
![]() im afraid of what might come my way
![]() im not afraid of you, im afraid of myself
![]() ![]() you have changed my life in more ways then you know
![]() and i feel you will change it in even more ways even after you go
![]() these changes are varied some you might not even know
![]() on my boat you are the sail but in my raft you dont have to row
![]() you are the lighthouse to guide me through what i dont know
![]() these changes you have made, unnoticed they will not go
![]() in the beginning your guidance i did not follow
![]() but now i see your point, and im glad you never let go
![]() now i love you now more than you will ever know
![]() ![]() in our secret spot underneath the stars
![]() you and i can be alone and at peace
![]() we can sit and talk or be quiet and wonder
![]() about all the things that lay beyond our reach
![]() we can sit by the water, alone on our bench
![]() compare the landscape, take it what we see
![]() for that short time, i can explain what doesnt make sense
![]() because im here with you, and you are my second half
![]() without you i am nothing but a silly little boy
![]() i live my life to make you smile, to make you laugh
![]() but in our spot, alone far away
![]() no matter how long or short we are there
![]() the memories wont ever go away
![]() and to think this spot was once just my own
![]() but it wasnt long before i saw your value
![]() and this spot quickly had grown
![]() its no longer my spot, its our spot
![]() and no one can take this away
![]() because our place can remain just in thought
![]() i wont be able to look at it the same without you
![]() i may go by it on a daily basis, but it wont be quite the same
![]() every time i sit there, i'll begin to realize how much i miss you
![]() but in our spot, our peaceful spot, together or apart, beneath the stars,
![]() this spot will always belong to me and you, it will always be ours
![]() ![]() i decide to stay
![]() and then you run away
![]() i hope you will return the next day
![]() but things stay the same way
![]() i wish today was yesterday
![]() when i thought you were here to stay
![]() ![]() we sat alone, that one special night,
![]() i held you in my arms as we sat under the moon light.
![]() for just those couple minutes, i knew what love was,
![]() i told you i loved you, no reasons needed, just because.
![]() that night i realized how much i love you,
![]() how much you mean to me, how i cant live without you.
![]() if i had to pick a moment, my most favorite moment,
![]() this would be it, because i know i wont ever forget it.
![]() me and you, cuddled together, no words, just silence,
![]() no worries, no problems, no concerns, no violence.
![]() just you and i, at peace and happy, thats how it was,
![]() charishable, meaningful, memorable, oh how magnificent it was.
![]() its a feeling i want to repeat, over and over until the end of time,
![]() it was ment for us. this moment is yours, this moment is mine.
![]() our special moment in time.
![]() ![]() i look at you, you look away,
![]() i look to the ground, you try to look at my face,
![]() i turn around, you turn my way,
![]() i sit at one end, you sit at the other,
![]() i walk towards you, but you walk the other way,
![]() i look to the sky, you look with me,
![]() a shooting star guides our eyes in the right direction,
![]() and we stare into each others eyes for a moment,
![]() feelings transverse, time stops, we dont blink,
![]() we wonder, in all the places to look, why did i look here last?
![]() your eyes should have been the first place i glanced,
![]() they show me meaning, they show me life...
![]() but thanks to this one moment, you see how i feel,
![]() without us having to speak a single word.
![]() ![]() you stole my life, you stole my friends
![]() you made my world a torture that never ends
![]() so come on back, take some more
![]() steal my happiness, take my soul
![]() i dont need it right? you said you would give me all i need
![]() you didnt give me anything, you didnt even give a damn
![]() so how am i supposed to live, when you own me
![]() own my thoughts, own my possessions so dear to me
![]() you stole my world away from my hands
![]() you dont know what you started
![]() but i know how it ends.
![]() ![]() one day, some day,
![]() i'll know exactly what to say,
![]() i wont let my emotions get in my way,
![]() i'll tell you the truth, even if if you dont want to stay,
![]() for no one else have i felt this way,
![]() and no matter what, i wont betray,
![]() in my heart is where my mind with stray,
![]() to try to find another way,
![]() to express myself today,
![]() but until that day, things stay this way,
![]() i'll trip over my words, land on my beliefs,
![]() squish my emotions, and stand up with my will,
![]() stand up for what i feel, and in the end we'll see where i land,
![]() some day, one day, i'll know exactly what to say.
![]() ![]() i take a look back, at what i have, at what ive done
![]() no matter how i look at it, i feel my life hasnt even begun
![]() sure i have great memories, and i have had my share of fun
![]() when i look back at what ive acomplished, it looks like im just trying to run
![]() i run from problems, i run from situations, i run from feelings, i just run
![]() i avoid the hazards, doubt my thoughts away, and around my fears ive spun
![]() i reach out for a hand, someone to help me out, but their live is already done
![]() i missed out, i missed it all, life past me by, i cant catch it, no matter how fast i run
![]() ![]() its a new day today, yet i feel the same as yesterday
![]() i wish it was gone, i wish it all just went away
![]() if only you hadnt left me. i wish you had stayed
![]() then things wouldnt be this way, id have real words to say
![]() instead of emotions to hide and thoughts to leave unsaid
![]() the pain keeps coming back, so i lay depressed in my bed
![]() i close my eyes but still all i see is red, bloody red
![]() of all my emotions, love was the one i never fed
![]() i let it decay, i let it die. the only love i have, is the love i imagine in my head
![]() ![]() i bleed my heart and empty out my soul, i scream out loud as my tears start to roll,
![]() i stand on a cliff, look to the sky for an answer, i get no reply and to the edge i take a step closer,
![]() my bleeding heart is killing me inside, and in my heart is where my emotions hide,
![]() now my toes hang off the edge, as i step closer and closer but never falling off the ledge,
![]() this is the point, where you came into my life, instantly i felt better, i thought i had found my wife,
![]() i was wrong, but you left me better than you found me, instead of jumping off a ledge, i just get on my knees,
![]() i look to the sky and ask for guidance, and inside i realize i already have my guidance,
![]() i have you, i have you as my friend, a friend that will be there for me, all the way to the end.
![]() ![]() this love of ours just grows and grows,
![]() the strength of it, no one knows,
![]() i help it mature, i help it bloom,
![]() in the end it will surely be our doom,
![]() it will eat us, devour us, spit us out,
![]() there will be pain and tears and we will certainly shout.
![]() but in the end that wont mean anything,
![]() because the love between us is the only thing,
![]() the only thing that keeps us alive,
![]() the only thing thats let me know you're mine.
![]() so our love, i no longer fear,
![]() our love only grows stronger when we are near.
![]() but even when at a distance, our love gets stronger,
![]() our love isnt just for life its much longer.
![]() time will stop before our love ends.
![]() in the path of life, love is the bend.
![]() it brings me to the edge, almost too close.
![]() but still its fragile, fragile like a rose.
![]() this love makes us feel alive,
![]() and on this love i thrive,
![]() its my motivation, my drive,
![]() to keep going and going through this rough life,
![]() i wont leave you, i wont say goodbye,
![]() i'll even be there for you after i die.
![]() our love is what makes me happy,
![]() sometimes very serious, sometimes rather sappy,
![]() but i know inside its the true way i feel.
![]() i'll crawl to your feet and kneel,
![]() and when i ask you to be mine forever,
![]() if yes is your answer, then your side i will leave empty, never,
![]() i'll be there for you to hold, and to talk to,
![]() because i dont know how long i could live without you.
![]() i cant explain with words just how i feel,
![]() but my lips will speak, my soul open, and my heart will seel the deal,
![]() i promise to love no other, the way i love you.
![]() i wouldnt have even made it this far, if it wasnt for you.
![]() so now im on my knees, looking up to you,
![]() ive spoke my mind and now i listen for a clue,
![]() a clue of whats on your mind, and what you think,
![]() and i can only stare, im too scared to blink.
![]() so i look you into your eyes, and tell you i love you,
![]() and with all my heart, i rise to my heart and i hug you,
![]() long and tight, hopping something i said will stick in your mind,
![]() cause i know another person like you, i will not ever find.
![]() ![]() up up up and away i fly, kissing life's worries goodbye.
![]() i had a fine day today, now i watch my problems fade away.
![]() a smile is on my face, as i no longer feel like a disgrace.
![]() nothing can bring me down from this cloud, i feel too happy, i feel too proud.
![]() but i dont want to be alone up here, so while im floating upwards i'll hold you near.
![]() this happiness isnt even worth a penny, if there isnt anyone with me.
![]() of all the people i know, this happiness is ours, only to you i shall show.
![]() these wonderful feelings that i acquired, are because of you, my desired.
![]() i want you to smile as bright as me, i want you to laugh, even if its at me.
![]() so take my hand and i'll lift you with me up into the sky,
![]() where dreams come true, and there is no such thing as goodbye.
![]() ![]() i found my life today,
![]() it was sitting in the gutter like yesterday,
![]() it didnt take long for it to end up this way,
![]() no matter what i do this is the way it will stay.
![]() dirty and unwanted, it sits in disarray,
![]() no ups, no downs, just the same thing every day,
![]() hopefully reincarnation isnt a dream too far away,
![]() cause if i could live again, my life wouldnt be this way.
![]() when i was quiet, i would speak, oh the words i would say.
![]() instead of closing my mind, i would let it stray.
![]() id take in everything that came my way.
![]() dreams would never even start to fade away.
![]() no problem would be to big to make me walk away.
![]() ![]() now i sit and write on this paper,
![]() the thoughts that float through my head.
![]() the thoughts i have in the early morning,
![]() the thought i have just before i go to bed.
![]() the thoughts that drive me to go on till tomorrow,
![]() the thoughts that make me question who i am.
![]() the things that flow through my head,
![]() easy to tell me i cant, hard to tell me i can.
![]() negativity is an easy escape from who i am inside,
![]() these thoughts, that rule my personality
![]() filling my mind with useless information...
![]() social prosperity, dignity, and all of humanity.
![]() meaningless venues for my mind to wonder through
![]() i try to see through all the bullshit
![]() but theres too much, its hard to figure out whats real.
![]() when i find something real, i try to put it in my thoughts but it wont fit.
![]() my mind has been filled with the pointlessness of daily life.
![]() ![]() like an inmate walking down death row,
![]() to the chair, to his fate, the fate he doesnt want to know.
![]() like an infant dying, never knowing
![]() what she could have known.
![]() like the homeless man on the street,
![]() starving, his stomach moans as he watches you eat.
![]() like a dying man, who only has one wish,
![]() but passes away before he can finish.
![]() like the doctor, who wanted to save a life,
![]() whos only patient he lost, was his wife.
![]() like a soldier, fighting for our nation, who dies in a war,
![]() but never really knew what he was fighting for.
![]() like the shy, quiet girl next door,
![]() who, everyday, gets beaten until shes on the floor.
![]() like the starving kids of a foreign country,
![]() who would do anything, to live like you and me.
![]() ![]() i lied when i said i would miss you,
![]() i really just wouldn't have anything better to do.
![]() i lied when i said you're original,
![]() your just the average person, a little less beautiful.
![]() i lied when i told you how i feel,
![]() the feelings i told you were never real.
![]() i lied when i wrapped my arms around you,
![]() you felt cold and hollow, my arms had froze to you.
![]() i lied when i said we'd be together forever,
![]() in my mind i think we should be together never.
![]() i lied about who i am, when im with you,
![]() i convinced myself to be someone different, just for you.
![]() i lied when i told you i love you,
![]() with a false response of "i love you too".
![]() ![]() my thoughts are wondering...
![]() just like they always do
![]() but now matter how far they go
![]() i cant stop thinking of you
![]() i wait for you impatiently
![]() seconds pass like hours
![]() this time is waste, but wont be
![]() when this time becomes ours
![]() then i'll cherish every moment
![]() i wont regret a single second
![]() you said you want to know me better
![]() more time together is what i recommend
![]() i cant speed up time
![]() so i'll continue to dream of you
![]() until you return to me again
![]() dreams, dreams are all i have of you
![]() ![]() i miss you - i miss life
![]() i long for pain - i grab a knife
![]() slicing through my veins - the blade slides into my skin
![]() most would cut their wrist - my heart is where i begin
![]() my eyes roll back into my head - to you i whisper goodnight
![]() this isnt such a hard thing to do - when you havent seen the light
![]() ![]() enemy
![]() i must no longer ignore it
![]() enemy
![]() i must begin to destroy it
![]() enemy
![]() i must no longer fear it
![]() enemy
![]() its my greatest
![]() enemy
![]() its my only
![]() enemy
![]() its me
![]() ![]() i looked into your eyes, i fell into their abyss,
![]() the world went away, all i felt is bliss,
![]() how did i live so long? so long without this?
![]() now i have a new problem, this i am really going to miss.
![]() ![]() happiness - is what i feel
![]() why - because of you
![]() when - ever you are around
![]() when - ever i think of you
![]() where - in my heart, in my eyes
![]() who - its a feeling i get from only you
![]() what - i dont know what it means, but i like the feel of it
![]() happiness - from you to me
![]() the hard part - giving it back to you
![]() the easy part - letting it brighten my day
![]() ![]() here i stand on both of my knees
![]() looking into my hands covered in color
![]() color from another
![]() color not of my own
![]() even if i was really there
![]() things would still be the same
![]() why do i have these pictures in my head
![]() when i was really at home playing on the floor
![]() waiting for you to come home that evening
![]() then came the message
![]() it hit me like a train
![]() i wouldnt see you again
![]() all i could do was scream
![]() then the tears began to fall
![]() eight years later they still flow at a steady pace
![]() when will this go away? never?
![]() only time will tell
![]() ![]() no matter what you do...
![]() do you feel like no one is watching?
![]() are you waiting for your turn...
![]() or do you just feel forgotten?
![]() you've worked so hard to get this far...
![]() would you throw it all away to be noticed?
![]() ![]() missing you is like missing air
![]() theres an emptiness i feel without you there
![]() why arent you here? this just isnt fair...
![]() your somewhere, something better there
![]() you think i forgot about you, when i really do care
![]() its my feelings that i cant seem to share
![]() now i am without you, now im running out of air
![]() gasping for a breathe, as you just stare
![]() i wonder if its you who doesnt care...
![]() ![]() this is a poem to myself, it helps me to find my emotions,
![]() it helps me to free my mind, it helps me ignore the notions,
![]() to be like everyone else, to be just another person in the crowd,
![]() it helps me to speak my mind, it makes my voice loud,
![]() i use it to learn, i use it to grow, grow into something unique,
![]() to make myself bold, to give myself color, not to be oblique,
![]() but even with this poem, emotions fall short, happiness is lost,
![]() i push on, knowing its my true love i've lost,
![]() but this poem keeps me alive, it lets me know, i have feelings left inside
![]() ![]() i see
![]() i see you
![]() i see through you
![]() i see through your lies
![]() and inside your eyes
![]() the truth lies
![]() and i will not be blind
![]() to all your lies
![]() and in my mind
![]() strength i'll find
![]() i wont deny
![]() my eyes
![]() i see
![]() ![]() not needed
![]() not wanted
![]() forgotten
![]() and rotten
![]() neglected
![]() disrespected
![]() mistreated
![]() overly beaten
![]() ignored
![]() misinterpreted
![]() lonely miserable
![]() sad and cripple
![]() used "saved"
![]() confused
![]() abused
![]() im dead
![]() im me
![]() no more
![]() no less
![]() ![]() head down against the ground
![]() all alone, not a soul around
![]() i feel so forgotten, so disregarded
![]() i thought this is where i started
![]() how did i end up here again?
![]() this cold dark corner screams my name
![]() maybe this is where i am to remain
![]() i'll sit and cry, thinking, absorbing the pain
![]() from a normal life i must refrain
![]() ![]() abusive excuses, flowing freely.
![]() from your lips into my ears.
![]() no explanation, no reasons why.
![]() just another alibi, just another lie.
![]() a way for you to hide, from whats on your mind.
![]() a cover up, giving false hope, misleading, dead end.
![]() unneeded retribution, unleashing my pain.
![]() tell me the truth, speak your mind.
![]() ![]() im a different kind of guy
![]() not the good kind of guy
![]() i look straight into your eyes
![]() as i fill your head with lies
![]() i tell you i love when i despise
![]() happiness i fake so others are satisfied
![]() ![]() no need to move forward, only drifting back
![]() all the pain, all the crying, wont bring you back
![]() will these emotions go away?
![]() or is the hatred here to stay?
![]() brushing off the leaves as i kneel
![]() headstone cold and bare, just how i feel
![]() slipping down away from life
![]() you left your child, you left your wife
![]() it wasnt your fault, it was "fate"
![]() it molded me, and set me straight
![]() only one feeling left to have, hate
![]() our time together i appreciate
![]() its the time lost i regret
![]() its you i'll never forget.
![]() ![]() raging emotions, out of control
![]() no path to guide me, no path to follow
![]() winding and turning, wearing away
![]() making my own path, going astray
![]() originality is the source of my pain
![]() so fuck me for now wanting to be the same?
![]() whatever you want to think of me
![]() you think you see it all, but you're blind to me
![]() you can judge me from a mile away
![]() judge me up close and you might be tempted to stay
![]() in just one conversation i'll make an impression
![]() like it or not, spare me your aggression
![]() in not unique because someone told me to be
![]() im unique because its me, its who i am.
![]() ![]() you are my only hero
![]() like me you're just a zero
![]() thats what makes me proud
![]() you're the quiet one, never loud
![]() not needing recognition or praise
![]() always strong, positive, and brave
![]() you teach me a little more everyday
![]() as long as i've known you its been this way
![]() no one can replace you...
![]() how did i live so long without you
![]() ![]() wrap me up in your wicked illusion
![]() make me forget who i was
![]() twisting lies im full of confusion
![]() cant remember whos fault it was
![]() let me dry out in the sun
![]() im dead in your mind
![]() painful questions have just begun
![]() with answers i wont ever find
![]() ![]() heart broke and waiting
![]() bored and contemplating
![]() happy yet complaining
![]() bright days but always raining
![]() empty but thinking
![]() emotion is fading
![]() commemorating
![]() suffocating
![]() ![]() im not the one
![]() im not the one
![]() who made you cry
![]() who said goodbye
![]() im not the one
![]() im not the one
![]() who raises their voice
![]() who made the bad choice
![]() im not the one
![]() im not the one
![]() who said i'll say
![]() but just walked away
![]() im not the one
![]() im not the one
![]() who said you're on your own
![]() or never picked up the phone
![]() im not the one who betrayed you
![]() this happened only because of you
![]() this is a poem to myself
to teach me a lesson i should have learned long ago
to take my emotions off that dusty shelf
not to bottle it all up inside and to just let it go
this is poem to try to teach me
no matter how tall you are or how high on a mountain you sit
there's always something more to see
there's always a better a view, one you wont forget
this is a poem to make me understand
friends are there to help, there to guide, there to listen
they were there to help me crawl and now they will help me stand
i have to tell them how i feel so they will have a chance to listen
this is a poem all about who i should be
sure i like who i am now, but ive done some things i regret in my past
i don't want to be a different person, improvement is the key
i'll be myself, that's all i need to make my relationships last
this is a poem about the direction im going
and how badly in that direction i don't want to go
i want to make my own path, winding and flowing
a path of my own and all my secrets i will never show
this is a poem to teach myself how to have faith again
not faith in a higher power but faith in my fellow man
its hard to do when i see the same pain again and again
but i need to understand, people don't see things like i can
this is poem about myself, to share with all my friends
so maybe they will understand why i am who i am
everyone has problems, its part of the road of life as it twists and bends
hopefully they know how much they mean to me and how sorry i am
![]() i cant make sense of what you said
![]() am i really just better off dead?
![]() put the gun against my head
![]() pull the trigger paint your world red
![]() all those little words we said
![]() built a bullet to pierce the skin
![]() twisting through the air so thin
![]() who knew "i love you" was such a sin
![]() another day, another waste
another scar, another face
another kiss, another taste
another walk, another pace
another star, another sky
another wish, another dream
another sorry, another lie
another fish, another stream
another smile, another faked
another life, another taken
another fixed, another broken
another belief, another forsaken
another story, same old ending
another ending, same old story
live, learn, and love
you learn to live when you're in love
you live when you learn to love
![]() ![]() i woke up one day
and told my sleeping body to continue to lay
this is a task for just my mind
to try to find if im really just one of a kind
no big deal
no reason really for wondering
just tired of seeing the same people
…following
so out onto the street
i sent my mind that morning
observing, no need for speaking
just silently meeting
one more punk, another skater
a quiet goth, and a gangster
another soccer mom, kids in hand
another 30 year old in a local band
i dont fit in, these people arent me
luckily its just my mind
my body they cannot see
im not one of a kind
like i hopped I was…
im a little bit of everything
or
im somewhere in between
luckily im home in bed
where i wont be seen
i guess i dont have a group to follow
i'll have to make my own
but it will be for the best, even if i am alone
i know where i want to be
i know im not there
even if no one wants to follow me
i'll be proud when i get there
… even if i am alone.
purely physical
and its not dependable
connecting on higher level
now thats something special
love doesnt seem made for me
a temporary period of insanity
makes you do things never dreamed
believe things you never believed
but love might be just what i need
![]() im the shell of a human
thats empty inside
stuck in the nine to five
killed by the daily grind
a dried out soul
and a broken heart
im an angry mind
a pile of broken parts
remind me of how i used to be
show me who i need to be now
a reason to keep my chin up
a reason to not stay down
im the shell of a human
you need to fill me up inside
it only takes three words
and a person by my side
![]() ![]() the crimson red flowed down his back
as he lays face down in the dirt
after being shot in the back
they wanted his car for some extra cash
to buy some cocaine, to pay their debts
...my life changed in a flash
i wouldnt have a father the next day
but i'll always remember those last words
the last words i'd here him say
"i love you son"... if only i had known...
that was a long time ago
now im older and grown
but everyday i miss you...
i love you dad.
![]() ![]() all dressed up
with no where to go
so much to offer
but nothing to show
feeling blue
got my head in the clouds
the faster i get up
the faster i fall back down
so sperate me
my soul from my body
pick me up
show me the view
everybody's got something
i need something new
with my knees on the ground
the sights are getting old
black, white and shades of grey
everything seems cold
no better reason to wake up
then a reason to live
material wealth
has nothing to give
so seperate me
my soul from my body
![]() ![]() plastic, steel and wire
im the one that none admire
im as fake as fake can be
you can see right through me
tear away my skin
im the one you called your friend
hollow, empty, dead inside
truly one of a kind
bruised and bent
the wasted time you spent
just a pile of wires
that no one admires
im the broken heart
looking for another start
wounds that wont heal
im the heart that doesn't feel
![]() its nine thirty two
and im dreaming of you
its nothing new
its what i always do
not at any certain time
just when you're on my mind
missing you is easy to do
you were something special
there's no one else quite like you
i compare all the others
they never come close to you
not sure why i let you go
i wish i let my feelings show
im trained to keep it all inside
use a smile to tell a little lie
“everything's okay, i'll be alright”
if only i knew how stupid i was
to let you out of my sight
![]() the kill switch is engaged
![]() and i feel so enraged
![]() the cycle came to an end
![]() this is how you lose a best friend
![]() i cared too much about who you see
![]() my heart fills with jealousy
![]() so close but so far away
![]() this is why love fades away
![]() everyday we grew apart
![]() i noticed it from the very start
![]() its amazing what one lie can do
![]() this is why i stopped loving you
![]() from beginning, to ending
![]() i feel im descending
![]() down a spiral to hell
![]() a place i know too well
![]() broken hearts and open wounds
![]() im tired of the same bad news
![]() we're over, we're done for
![]() this is why i dont need you anymore
![]() ![]() one look in the other direction
![]() and you're never there for me
![]() one weekend getaway
![]() and you dont ever want me
![]() one mistake i made
![]() and you never trust me
![]() one little phone call missed
![]() and you wont talk to me
![]() even if i was perfect
![]() you still wouldnt ever love me
![]() ![]() i failed, failed so miserably
i thought we'd always be
said i'd never make you cry
never wanted to say goodbye
never wanted to be more dead
than that moment that i said
i dont need anyone anymore
on my knees, i cried to the floor
should have thought before i spoke
it was more than one heart that i broke
![]() ![]() im not a man im an animal
i break hearts im a criminal
my actions are inexcusable
im hollow and invisible
im a copy easily replaceable
my heart is a crucible
my soul is a fraction of a decimal
im bland and predictable
throw me away im expendable
so incredibly irresponsible
im nothing but regrettable
im nothing incredible
![]() ![]() umbrella in hand
![]() but its folded at my side
![]() walking alone
![]() even though i have a ride
![]() its one of those days
![]() where nothing gets you down
![]() no matter what is said
![]() you just cant bring me down
![]() today is just another day
![]() of the rest of my life
![]() but whats the point of living
![]() if you cant feel alive
![]() ![]() you couldnt be further from my heart
![]() didnt even think we'd have a start
![]() then i never thought we'd have an end
![]() guess our love was dead before it began
![]() all has been said, i know now it was all a lie
![]() i think in your heart you wanted this goodbye
![]() i was always wrong, you were always right
![]() you pushed me away with all your might
![]() i cared too much or i didnt try hard enough
![]() we knew our relationship would be tough
![]() i didnt think you would be trying to throw it away
![]() it was your end of the rope that started to fray
![]() i gave you my very best
![]() you turned out like all the rest
![]() ![]() woke up with the sheets around my feet
![]() and some drool on my pillow
![]() messy hair, morning breath
![]() im just your normal naked fellow
![]() every morning is a special routine
![]() i get messed up if somethings out of place
![]() i'll forget to put on underwear
![]() or try to comb my face
![]() im not much of a morning person
![]() but i do my best to get moving
![]() every now and then i get a little lazy
![]() and in my first class i'll start snoozing
![]() dreaming of where i'd rather be
![]() home in bed, wrapped up snuggly
![]() a nice big bed with big soft pillows
![]() oh man, wouldnt that be lovely
![]() then i'll be awakened
![]() by that weird kid that sits next to me
![]() i'll be groggy and grumpy
![]() snap at the kid, "man dont touch me"
![]() teacher will stop teaching
![]() to lecture me about staying out late
![]() the bell will ring
![]() finally its time to evacuate
![]() run to my next class
![]() then drive on home
![]() day dreaming all day
![]() man how my mind can roam
![]() most of the time their silly dreams
![]() sea shores and driving fast
![]() the bad dreams go on forever
![]() while the good dreams never seem to last
![]() sleep walking and day dreaming
![]() sometimes i feel i slept through my day
![]() i was awake but nothing touched me
![]() sometimes life and dreams end the same way
![]() you always wake up for another day
![]() ![]() running with scissors
![]() in the house of mirrors
![]() im taking my chances
![]() im not very romantic
![]() but i look good by your side
![]() slowly running out of pride
![]() for myself and who i am
![]() selling my soul on cam
![]() porno star to sunday's preacher
![]() growing up, getting weaker
![]() fragile heart with a stable mind
![]() quick to think you're one of a kind
![]() yes its true what they say
![]() the yarn of my life is starting to fray
![]() but in the middle, not at the ends
![]() im a horrible person with lots of friends
![]() guess i should warn my next mate
![]() im expired, two months out of date
![]() a little old fashioned, i treat my girl right
![]() never looking to screw on the first night
![]() im sorry if you think lesser of me
![]() dont forget theres always more fish in the sea
![]() but if you dont like your door opened for you
![]() or having someone who will always stay true
![]() you dont have to choose me baby
![]() you might even be better off without me
![]() so im sticking my head in a blender
![]() seems its the only way to forget her
![]() i got all these rushing emotions
![]() all these hints and the notions
![]() i found my heart again
![]() i had left it with a friend
![]() ![]() its so hard to believe in this dream
![]() when we're ripping apart at the seams
![]() its not hard to believe in my will and chance to be
![]() myself in all this insanity
![]() if im here at the end of the day
![]() its only because i had to stay
![]() i can make the change
![]() we can make it through
![]() i know life can be unfair
![]() especially when no ones there
![]() when you need someone to talk to
![]() where is my thread running through
![]() im keeping my connection true
![]() for me, the world and my love for you
![]() if im still here at the end of the day
![]() its because i had so much left to say
![]() you can make the change
![]() and i can make it through
![]() you can make it
![]() i know you can
![]() we can make it
![]() i know we can
![]() if i die
![]() before i wake
![]() i'll need you to know
![]() its not a mistake
![]() live moves on
![]() with or without us
![]() i'll need you to trust me
![]() be happy, stay healthy
![]() live your life
![]() the way you want it to be
![]() i'll always be inside
![]() reminding you how it once felt
![]() our love, our life
![]() together and forever
![]() you and me
![]() lifes great big tragedy
![]() is not being able to
![]() prevent what we see
![]() i told you once that you could trust
![]() in everything that i've ever been
![]() we can make the change
![]() we can make it through this life
![]() you can make it
![]() i know you can
![]() ![]() to my surprise
![]() im not one of a kind
![]() cause in your eyes
![]() im replaceable
![]() it was just my time
![]() to be at the front of the line
![]() whore just moved on
![]() down, down and on to the next one
![]() ![]() face to face
![]() hate to hate
![]() this is a war
![]() not a fucking debate
![]() stomp on my dreams
![]() and i'll bury you
![]() i have a future
![]() it doesnt include you
![]() fist to fist
![]() tears to blood
![]() my only regret
![]() is thinking it was love
![]() ![]() theres nothing wrong?
![]() who are you trying to kid?
![]() you didnt act like this before
![]() i just want to know what i did
![]() was i in you way
![]() or was i never there?
![]() did i smother you
![]() or did it seem i didnt care?
![]() you spoke before you thought
![]() i think the fault is with you
![]() you didnt even feel
![]() when you said "i love you"
![]() ![]() knee deep
![]() in this shit
![]() cant climb out
![]() of this pit
![]() down deep
![]() in this hate
![]() cant seem
![]() to concentrate
![]() drowning deep
![]() in these lies
![]() were happiness
![]() cant survive
![]() ![]() i dreamed i died
![]() no one cared no one cried
![]() just like i thought
![]() happiness can be bought
![]() a cut to the throat
![]() and thats all she wrote
![]() no walking away
![]() here i forever lay
![]() in this shallow hole of pain
![]() where i can feel the rain
![]() beat upon my face
![]() such a disgrace
![]() i dreamed i died
![]() and only sky had cried
![]() ![]() the world changed
![]() when i was created
![]() like messiahs and salvation
![]() my death is awaited
![]() every choice i make
![]() is twice debated
![]() every word i speak
![]() is misquoted, misstated
![]() feel i speak a language
![]() that cant be translated
![]() no need to feel
![]() its overrated
![]() lies arent told
![]() their integrated
![]() never time for rest
![]() when you're the hated
![]() everything dear
![]() gets desecrated
![]() wheres the life
![]() everyones sedated
![]() to everyone like me
![]() this poem is dedicated
![]() free your mind
![]() its time to be liberated
![]() ![]() hardly more than a curator
![]() he's a pathetic vindicator
![]() call me heretic, call me traitor
![]() in your eyes you're always greater
![]() really just another translator
![]() working for that invisible dictator
![]() the one they call creator
![]() ![]() im the structure without the frame
![]() everyone knows who i am
![]() but no one knows my name
![]() the one time i am serious
![]() everyone thinks its a game
![]() what i feared is what i became
![]() full of sorrow full of shame
![]() things wont ever be the same
![]() so raise your weapons and take aim
![]() burn me alive set me aflame
![]() remove my pictures from their frames
![]() cause things wont ever be the same
![]() ![]() its a common topic of debate
![]() this little four letter notion called hate
![]() but you cant define it, you have to relate
![]() the feeling you get
![]() when your stood up on your frist date
![]() its the curve in the road
![]() when you just wanted to go straight
![]() its the final comment that makes you irate
![]() its saying goodbye to your soul mate
![]() when you think you know it all
![]() but you were never au fait
![]() its being at the end of your path
![]() with one last key that doesnt unlock that final gate
![]() its the meaning of life you cant translate
![]() ![]() punch to the face
![]() i hit the floor
![]() "such a disgrace"
![]() i come back for more
![]() i just want
![]() to be told im beautiful
![]() thats not much to ask
![]() does it make me awful?
![]() kick to the ribs
![]() now im out of breath
![]() couldnt care less
![]() how im hurt next
![]() just want someone to hold
![]() and someone to hold me back
![]() without having to worry
![]() about being stabbed in the back
![]() cut to the neck
![]() i watch the blood
![]() hit the floor
![]() oh baby, gimme more
![]() just wanted some love
![]() got more than i could handle
![]() i have to admit
![]() you were my favorite scandal
![]() ![]() sometimes its hard to say i love you
![]() no matter how well they know you
![]() some things just take time
![]() but you never left my mind
![]() ![]() the road gets bumpy
![]() and times get tough
![]() everyone has there days
![]() when enough is enough
![]() keep your head up high
![]() but both feet on the ground
![]() dont give up on life
![]() happiness will come back around
![]() ![]() i speak
![]() when spoken to
![]() same excuses
![]() that i hear from you
![]() i see
![]() with an eye or two
![]() getting ill
![]() at the sight of you
![]() i feel
![]() the way i do
![]() for better or worse
![]() i always loved you
![]() ![]() pouring rain
![]() dark skies ahead
![]() black and gray
![]() images in my head
![]() petals of red
![]() dark as blood
![]() you're the first flower
![]() after the flood
![]() ray of light
![]() on my dark afternoon
![]() just want to know
![]() why you left me so soon
![]() now on my own
![]() out in the cold
![]() cant wait to be
![]() alone and old
![]() ![]() deep regret
![]() from where i've been
![]() hard to forget
![]() what my eyes have seen
![]() living with burden
![]() for what i've done
![]() guess i am
![]() just another man
![]() guess i am
![]() only human
![]() ![]() im dropping the ball
![]() its slipping away
![]() through my fingers
![]() or thrown away
![]() i've lost my grip
![]() life's rolling away
![]() i dropped the ball
![]() but its falling your way
![]() tried to catch it
![]() on my own
![]() but the weight was that
![]() of a stone
![]() catch it or drop it
![]() its up to you
![]() cant keep it alone
![]() i can only make it with you
![]() ![]() there were smiles
![]() there were tears
![]() feelings revealed
![]() confronted fears
![]() there were hard times
![]() there was lots of fun
![]() a rediscovered love
![]() maybe she is really the one
![]() i still smell her on my clothes
![]() and taste her gentle kiss
![]() she showed me all the affection
![]() i didnt even know i missed
![]() her hand holding mine
![]() her arms around my waist
![]() an exchange of emotions
![]() and we're giving love another taste
![]() ![]() eyes shut
![]() eyelids exposed
![]() mind is open
![]() body enclosed
![]() dreams of pleasure
![]() dreams of pain
![]() the life i wanted
![]() or the life insane
![]() sunsets and ferraris
![]() zebras and oceans
![]() telling my future
![]() only hints and notions
![]() timeline shortening
![]() life is a dying trend
![]() but in my dreams
![]() happiness has no end
![]() ![]() in one month
![]() i went to the zoo
![]() had a romantic evening
![]() dinner for two
![]() in one month
![]() i relived my childhood
![]() as we roller skated
![]() but most important
![]() our love got reinstated
![]() in just one month
![]() i gave a thousand smiles
![]() we proved love cant be stopped
![]() by a mere few hundred miles
![]() in one month
![]() i found how to live
![]() for this month on
![]() all my love to you i'll give
![]() in one month
![]() collected memories galore
![]() cant wait to have these feelings
![]() tomorrow and forever more
![]() ![]() look into
![]() my bleeding eyes
![]() from past experience
![]() to all the lies
![]() lessons lived
![]() and lessons learned
![]() the scars i wear
![]() are the scars i earned
![]() ![]() voices
![]() dancing around my head
![]() whispers taughting
![]() of what you said
![]() i let you slip
![]() between my fingers
![]() once before
![]() but never again
![]() i lost my love
![]() i lost a friend
![]() once before
![]() but never again
![]() ![]() feeling the spit
![]() hit my face
![]() as you laugh at me
![]() and put me in my place
![]() im a bottom feeder
![]() kissing your feet
![]() living on the floor
![]() as i beg for more
![]() right away i can see
![]() you'll always hope i'll be
![]() below you, my superior
![]() im a slave, im your inferior
![]() ![]() not an addict or a user
![]() im just the number one consumer
![]() cant get what i want any sooner
![]() late night, early morning, afternooner
![]() red pills, blue pills, yellow pills, green pills
![]() from thrills to spills
![]() my growing hunger it fulfills
![]() the world turns to images, motionless stills
![]() this is life without the frills
![]() the unguided missle cruiser
![]() victim of the pointed finger acuser
![]() the end cant come any sooner
![]() for this sad, pathetic, loser
![]() the substance abuser
![]() ![]() a room so empty
![]() painted in shades of gray
![]() nothing seems to last
![]() just different states of decay
![]() facing the mirror i ask
![]() who am i today?
![]() lost, scared, confused
![]() a mind in disarray
![]() this is my daily torment
![]() when you are so far and away
![]() ![]() from yesterday to tomorrow
![]() memories all around
![]() her home isnt here
![]() will she ever come back down?
![]() i dont believe in an afterlife
![]() because heaven is just a town
![]() heaven is wherever
![]() her feet touch the ground
![]() heaven is the pillow
![]() where her head lays down
![]() she brings the bliss
![]() the happiness thats world renown
![]() and until her return
![]() upon my face i will wear this frown
![]() ![]() another night, sleeping alone in my bed
![]() dreaming of those words that were never said
![]() binding us together, they were our thread
![]() holding us close, now im sleeping with the dead
![]() ![]() alone
![]() in my room
![]() in this period
![]() of gloom
![]() i smell the perfume
![]() reminding me of you
![]() as i sit here
![]() alone in my tomb
![]() alone in my room
![]() ![]() this is a change of pace
![]() but i cant past
![]() the beauty of your face
![]() given the chance
![]() my steps i would retrace
![]() its always been
![]() about more than the chase
![]() you're the supple flower
![]() im the hollow vase
![]() you'll never know
![]() how i long for our next embrace
![]() ![]() where am i
![]() whats my name
![]() oblivious am i
![]() im totally unaware
![]() is what im trying to imply
![]() im looking up
![]() but cant see the sky
![]() shaking hands
![]() when i say goodbye
![]() answering questions
![]() with no reply
![]() making plans
![]() for after i die
![]() drinking
![]() from the cup gone dry
![]() never taking time
![]() to ask for reasons why
![]() stumbling and delirious
![]() oblivious am i
![]() ![]() speak the way you feel
![]() words aren't meant to heal
![]() as you speak its obvious
![]() but in the end its all just words
![]() speak from the heart
![]() words are a good place to start
![]() just remember
![]() actions speak
![]() louder than words
![]() speak the honest truth
![]() words not meant for the youth
![]() words can hurt
![]() more than stones
![]() speak the way you feel
![]() words aren't meant to heal
![]() ![]() water filled lungs - im drowning
![]() strangled - i breathe deep
![]() flat lining - my heart beats true
![]() consequences of knowing you
![]() swinging from the noose
![]() i ask for one a little tighter
![]() soak me in gasoline
![]() then hand me the lighter
![]() tell me who i am again
![]() fill my head with doubt
![]() i cant breathe when you smother me
![]() so im looking for a better way out
![]() ![]() i'll be happy some other day
![]() i see myself and look away
![]() the distance is showing now on my face
![]() soon from here i'll disappear
![]() disappear without a fucking trace
![]() the smile i miss, the face so far away
![]() i lost a friend along the way
![]() memories i thought would never fade
![]() im afraid they'll blow away
![]() i wish that i could disappear
![]() to that place so far from here
![]() so i could be yours again
![]() from now until the end
![]() ![]() all i want, all i need
![]() always just out of reach
![]() i've been coming up empty
![]() i run as fast as i can
![]() i pushed as hard as anyone
![]() still nothing left for me
![]() and i want...
![]() i've tried as hard as i can
![]() and i need...
![]() i've taken all i can stand
![]() and i fall...
![]() never to rise again
![]() after all is said and done
![]() i'm back where i started from
![]() and i want...
![]() try as hard as i can
![]() and i need...
![]() take all i can stand
![]() and then i fall...
![]() never to rise again
![]() ![]() if you listened and observed
![]() you'd see i wear your scars
![]() i wont let you get the best of me
![]() i wont let you get the best of yourself
![]() you wont even try to listen to me
![]() but im going to keep hanging on
![]() im giving you all i can
![]() i can see the end, i can feel it
![]() wouldnt believe me if i told you
![]() that i know now what is to follow
![]() because the truth is so hard to swallow
![]() ![]() the look on your face
![]() was priceless
![]() the look on his face
![]() priceless
![]() there was no trace
![]() of sadness
![]() no reasonable motive
![]() to your madness
![]() the look on your face was priceless
![]() the look on his face was priceless
![]() you liar, you cheat
![]() you whore, you're worthless
![]() you got caught
![]() and the look on your face was priceless
![]() ![]() life is doing time
![]() even if you didnt commit the crime
![]() no evidence
![]() to convince the jury
![]() you are here to kill me
![]() make sure im good and buried
![]() in your face
![]() no signs of panic
![]() no signs of worry
![]() no emotions
![]() you're like a killer
![]() from a classic horror story
![]() i died
![]() the first time you said my name
![]() i knew then
![]() life wouldnt ever be the same
![]() you must have your reasons
![]() for driving me insane
![]() no evidence
![]() to convince the jury
![]() pleading insanity
![]() pleading guilty
![]() lock me up
![]() throw away the key
![]() lock me up
![]() just to keep you away
![]() ![]() im your first rate second choice
![]() i can tell by the hesitation in your voice
![]() pushed the to edge your decision was made
![]() another reason i shouldn't have stayed
![]() love is your favorite verb
![]() used it to push my feelings to the curb
![]() the web you wove was strong
![]() but it didn't hold me for long
![]() i got away - i ran away - right out the door
![]() think what you want, i wont be back for more
![]() ![]() sleeping awake
![]() tossing and turning
![]() inside my skin
![]() standing still
![]() running in circles
![]() yet again
![]() colors run
![]() colors fade
![]() a lovely gray blend
![]() sleeping awake
![]() no dreams tonight
![]() a repeating trend
![]() ![]() i dont want to hear your apology
![]() i know its just as worthless
![]() as if i were to say im sorry
![]() no sympathy - we're ruthless
![]() each day more fighting
![]() all of us want to die
![]() the pressures rising
![]() i dont even want to try
![]() ![]() its the beginning of the end
![]() not sure where we lost control
![]() just like in the beginning
![]() in the end im all alone
![]() i dont ever want to be
![]() the person you want to forget
![]() the one to make you resent it
![]() the reason you regret it
![]() i dont ever want to be
![]() the one to make you divide it
![]() the one to make you deny it
![]() the one to make you deprive it.
![]() i dont ever want to be
![]() ![]() i want to be
![]() your provider, your protector
![]() your best friend, your lover
![]() your comrade, your boyfriend
![]() some day, your husband
![]() your amigo, your homie
![]() your heart, your beauty
![]() your valentines
![]() your sweetheart
![]() your man, your classmate
![]() your boy toy, your soul mate
![]() your romance, your happiness
![]() your ldbear, your servant
![]() your roommate, your worker
![]() and everything in between
![]() ![]() because in my dreams
![]() there's no such thing as goodbye
![]() just our best memories
![]() our best moments, frozen in time
![]() no distance is too great
![]() to keep you from my side
![]() we're together in my dreams
![]() the open eyes of the mind
![]() lonely when i wake, so i sleep
![]() because there is no goodbye
![]() when we're in my dreams
![]() ![]() light the match
![]() and let it burn away
![]() i'll never again
![]() let things get this way
![]() out with the old
![]() in with the new
![]() pack your things
![]() first to go is you
![]() soaked in gasoline
![]() time to make my spark
![]() the hole in my soul
![]() is where you made your mark
![]() how did i ever
![]() let things get this way
![]() let it burn, let it burn
![]() let it burn away
![]() ![]() its amazing im sane
![]() with all the times
![]() i've screamed out in vain
![]() its amazing i still care
![]() because when i need someone most
![]() seems they're never there
![]() its amazing my heart still beats
![]() with my lack of victories
![]() and my growing number of defeats
![]() its amazing i still obey
![]() when the situations of life
![]() never seem to go my way
![]() ![]() tell me something
![]() cause i dont know
![]() if that looks for me
![]() why dont you tell me
![]() what it is you see in me
![]() tell me something
![]() dont know if that looks for me
![]() i ask this question expecting
![]() twisted lies to come clean
![]() i face it - i see it
![]() dont wanna be it
![]() i hate it - i feed it
![]() you'll never know how i miss you
![]() and cant wait to see you
![]() so tell me something
![]() cause i dont know
![]() if that looks for me
![]() ![]() yesterday has passed
![]() tomorrow is coming fast
![]() the memories remain
![]() you came, you went
![]() my emotions were spent
![]() the memories remain
![]() laughs of happiness
![]() to the silence of loneliness
![]() the memories remain
![]() the goodnight kiss
![]() is another thing i miss
![]() the memories remain
![]() marriage and children
![]() the future we believed in
![]() the memories remain
![]() no matter where you stray
![]() near or far far away
![]() the memories will remain
![]() ![]() life is the consequence
![]() of your latest choice
![]() in love there's no alone
![]() always a soothing voice
![]() life can be truly hard
![]() sometimes the pain can burn
![]() you don't get what you deserve
![]() you don't always get what you earn
![]() tears from the past
![]() today's sorrows, yesterdays regret
![]() don't let them blind you
![]() some moments you wont want to forget
![]() the going will get tougher
![]() what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
![]() pull through, tomorrow will be brighter
![]() you wont suffer any longer
![]() ![]() you're skating on a thawing rink
![]() do you really want to stop and think
![]() after the ice cracks - but before you drown
![]() open your eyes wide - take a look around
![]() shore is too far to save yourself now
![]() the weight of your clothes pulling you down
![]() the freezing water your coffin, i'll meet you at the bottom
![]() ![]() ![]() Sayings:
![]() ![]() its better to be broken than it is to break.
![]() it isnt love because i can live with you, its love because i cant live without you
![]() live fast, but dont miss a thing
![]() when words arent exchanged, silence invades
![]() words fade, promises break, opinions change, but memories remain
![]() there will always be a part of me that goes unsaid
![]() a lesson lived is a lesson learned. [everyday is a lesson.]
![]() its not about the words that are said, its about the words that are never spoken.
![]() start a path - dont follow one
![]() trust isnt found in a person, its found in a friend.
![]() i'll count the days i've suffered through, to see if they add up to you
![]() if i were to walk a million miles, and swim across the oceans, and crawl up to your feet, would you forgive me for what ive done? because for you i would do that, and i mean this from my heart, if i wasnt willing to go the distance, or swim across the seas, or crawl on both my knees, then i dont think our love even began to start
![]() if i was a monkey, you'd be the first person i'd throw my shit at.
![]() id rather you leave and be out of my life then to have you stay, simply so you can proclaim you were always there for me.
![]() in a world made for people that "fit in" i proudly call myself an individual... an original person, creative and unique, because im not afraid to be myself, im not afraid to take a chance, my only fear is being thought of as being like everyone else.
![]() ask why, be curious, question everything, dont let someone tell you that you are someone you're not. live by what you feel is right, not by what you are told is right.
![]() start a path today. everyone else follows paths... be different, go out and make one... even if it doesnt lead you anywhere.
![]() ![]() ![]() (C) all above material written by LD Forrest [ email ]
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